I just wish I knew who my future boyfriend is already. I don’t want to deal with all this dating or getting to know each other. It’s nice but I really hate it because either the guy becomes clingy or they don’t want to be serious. Really? Why waste my time?
Then there’s the aspect if the relationship will last. I see all these relationships who have made it all these months and years and I’m over here like “I like pizza”. I just want a fun stable relationship. I just want to be fucking happy.
Third. There’s the feelings for exs. I hate it. Why do our brains do this. I understand remembering the good times but I don’t want to remember the bad times too. I just want to forget everything because I can’t be with them. Once I start to remember, feelings come back and I’m like “oh god I miss you”. The fuck? Most of my exs have girls and I’m here all alone. I just don’t want to have feelings for someone that doesn’t even find me attractive anymore. I want to get rid of my feelings.
Lastly. I don’t know what’s wrong with me? I’m a pretty smart girl with goals. I don’t cheat. I really enjoy sex and I’m extremely kinky (frequently I might add). I have a great personality. I have a lot of patience especially when I love you. The only thing “wrong” with me is how I look. I’m decent/average looking and I guess I’m kinda chubby but I’m still cute I guess. I have a nice smile if that helps.
Why I hate feelings:
• I don’t know who’s going to be a good stable boyfriend
• I want someone to stick with me through the thick and thin
• Why the hell am I thinking about someone that doesn’t want me anymore?
• I’m an entertaining, bright, loyal, horny girl
Feelings, emotions, and love suck ass!