Calling all biology majors! Calling all chemistry majors! Calling all science majors! I have an important question:
How do you balance a relationship and your school work? I visited the school I will be going to in the fall and oh my god. It was amazing! The classes cover so much of the science perspective and how it will cover the new MCAT but after a while I wondered… How do you manage a love life?! Like I’ve heard of the three S’s: school, social life, and sleep. You can only pick two. I want to pass the MCAT and go off to med school so I pick school and sleep. I know how to pick academics and sleep over friends already buuuuut I kinda have troubles with the opposite sex. I’ve been getting better not to be distracted by them but I’m not a saint. I get lonely and I have “urges”. Lol Actually when I was on my visit one of the head people in the biology department pointed out two attractive male students and said they were both bio students. She also informed me of a student that was doubled majored in Pre-Law and Pre-Med. When I met him he was extremely friendly, outgoing, and it was evident he was a we educated man. He was my ultimate weakness. I realized then, “how am I supposed to turn down my hormones around older social intelligent men?” That’s where I’m most concerned. I have to obtain a certain GPA for my scholarship and med school plus pass the MCAT but can I do that with a love life? We’re all adults here so I’ll say, I want to experiment sexually in college. To be comfortable with my sexuality and my interests. Could I do that and excel in the science field or wait till breaks to have some fun? Could I have a romantic relationship that satisfies my emotional needs or focus on my course work that’ll satisfy my career dreams? I just want to help people, save lives, explore science, and become a success.

It’s a waste of time. I’m telling you.

Finally home 😴

Love is like gambling
I feel like I’m at a slot machine
Putting all my time into it
But I get nothing
Finally I get tired and give up
And you know what happens?
The next person who’s playing
Wins
I’m not upset with the winner
I’m not upset with slot machine
I’m upset I wasted my time
I’m upset when I knew I wasn’t going to win and I still kept trying
I’m upset that I don’t get anything to enjoy
I get memories
Yeah that’s great
Don’t get me wrong
I was happy
I got a little high when I was playing
But now the memories burn me
I get a scar every time I remember
Now I’m sober
I have addiction
To love
There’s no one for me
So I wait
I’m lonely
I’m tired
I’m bored
But it’s good for me
“Love yourself before you love someone else”
I’m getting comfortable with myself
I’m trying to be strong
I will bear through this
“Don’t go for someone else if your heart is still with another”
I’m done looking
If someone wants me that bad
Come get me
I still have love for someone else
But not enough to stop my future with a new beau
“Move on. You can’t make someone want you.”
90% of me is over you
I don’t love you
I don’t want you
You’re a friend
10% of me loves you
Loves you with all my heart
Has hope we’ll have something one day
Thinks you still want me
But you know what 10%?
It’s bullshit
You’ll get hurt again
And no one would be able to catch you
You’re just setting yourself for disaster
He’s gone
He doesn’t want you
He will never want you
You’re just another friend
You guys will never have anything
MOVE
THE FUCK
ON

It’s a constant war with my addiction
But now I’m in rehab
Hi
My name is Shaquona
And I have a addiction
My drug is love
And I want to be clean

It feels like the end of the world at first but you’ll get over it.

Story of my life. #Shaquona

Moral of the story: wash your hands